It seems like forever since I've been here, however, it's just that things got a little hairy with surgery and my hospital stay. I am okay but not done. I still have more surgery to go through, but for now, I am on the mend and healing okay.
Do you ever wake up in the mornings or have those days when the reality or your own reality hits? You now realize that your life is the same as it was yesterday. While it doesn't seem that things are changing I have to believe that for as much as things stay the same the more they really do change we just can't see it or be aware of what that change maybe.
Do you ever wake up in the mornings or have those days when the reality or your own reality hits? You now realize that your life is the same as it was yesterday. While it doesn't seem that things are changing I have to believe that for as much as things stay the same the more they really do change we just can't see it or be aware of what that change maybe.
Well that's how it is right now with me. This morning I am left with the feeling of manatany and just basic routines. I am still limited as to what I can and cannot do for now, ut am getting very anxious about when it's all over, what I will be able to do. My one goal for the hidradenitis surgeries I am have is to be able to dance, again and with my husband. (We loved to dance when we were younger and had just fell in love with each other.)
Enough of that...
Since I am treating this as sort of my catch all. It acts as a journal of sorts, diary of sort, and notebook of sorts, while maintaining my sanity as I write or journal through some of the things I am thinking. Now, not everything I think or do will go here but it really is my conversation myself.
This blog will show the struggles I have by being Christian and living the life of a Christian. Many people think Christians are immune to the nuance and essence of the world as it ertains to this life. But in reality we are usually hard hit than most for this very reason. We are subject to the same laws of physics and science as everyone else.
There is much misconception about the true and real Christian. And so I have inserted myself into the equasion of living some of this stuff here online through my various websites and blogs. I am only human and worry about the same things the rest of the world worries about. I can't help it; I am human too. Yet I know from where my help comes to me and that is the only way to stand and battle mysef; not God but myself and here is where the story begins to unfold and unravel.
"Become a storyteller and Live your life as an open book".
Enough of that...
Since I am treating this as sort of my catch all. It acts as a journal of sorts, diary of sort, and notebook of sorts, while maintaining my sanity as I write or journal through some of the things I am thinking. Now, not everything I think or do will go here but it really is my conversation myself.
This blog will show the struggles I have by being Christian and living the life of a Christian. Many people think Christians are immune to the nuance and essence of the world as it ertains to this life. But in reality we are usually hard hit than most for this very reason. We are subject to the same laws of physics and science as everyone else.
There is much misconception about the true and real Christian. And so I have inserted myself into the equasion of living some of this stuff here online through my various websites and blogs. I am only human and worry about the same things the rest of the world worries about. I can't help it; I am human too. Yet I know from where my help comes to me and that is the only way to stand and battle mysef; not God but myself and here is where the story begins to unfold and unravel.
"Become a storyteller and Live your life as an open book".
This began the defining moment of the call God had placed on me and my life; and I have to admit I've been doing a really shoddy job of it, which is why I am here today.
Accountability is important even to myself and this blog will help me stay accountable by allowing me to work through and write my thoughts and feelings down in order to bring into chaos such as like a day like today.
I am frustrated, overwhelmed and just want to do nothing. Seems like life is pulling me in so many different directions I can't keep up. I am scattered and lost but I know how to hold on until God works everything out and everything works its way out. I am confident of this one thing that God will always make things work out according to his purpose, benefit and especially for His pleasure.
So, for now I am plugged back into my blog here and now my day begins, but I will return.
I am frustrated, overwhelmed and just want to do nothing. Seems like life is pulling me in so many different directions I can't keep up. I am scattered and lost but I know how to hold on until God works everything out and everything works its way out. I am confident of this one thing that God will always make things work out according to his purpose, benefit and especially for His pleasure.
So, for now I am plugged back into my blog here and now my day begins, but I will return.