I am very overwhelmed today which causes me much confusion. And when the confusion sets in I am unable to concentrate and focus on the things I need to be doing. These are the times when I feel like throwing in the towel and giving up all the way around.
There is so much I need to do and so much I need to cover in the few weeks I wonder how I'm going to get it all done. I have writing to get caught up on for when I go into surgery. I have the "Celebration of Marriage" event to finish planning and preparing for. And I have other writing endeavors that I need to work on.
There is so much I need to do and so much I need to cover in the few weeks I wonder how I'm going to get it all done. I have writing to get caught up on for when I go into surgery. I have the "Celebration of Marriage" event to finish planning and preparing for. And I have other writing endeavors that I need to work on.
My first surgery date has been set and the anxiety is rising for me. Every time I remind myself about the appointments I have my heart jumps. It skips a beat because it knows how much I despise being in the hospital. So I must keep myself calm and peaceful. Stress and anxiety is not good for the HS. It cause them to become even more active therefore more pain and agony.
DH is at his wits ends he let me know this morning. So now he is letting me know that there will be more outbursts coming my way. So I am really trying to get things done so that he doesn't have any outburst, therefore I won't get nervous and stressed out causing me more pain and anxiety.
So anyway, so much for life. It is the way it is and somethings we just can't change. No matter what or how we try some thing remain the same and we have to find ways of coping and dealing with things that we don't want to deal with.
So today I actually took the time to record my passwords and log in information in a place where I can access it without having to find all my stick notes and little notes. I had little pieces of paper scattered with login and password of different websites I have signed up for. So now I have gotten rid of the papers and it feels good to not have all these notes everywhere.
I find that it is okay to make notes when focused on something and you run across something you want to remember to come back to. Sure you can open whatever text editor you have to jot things down on the computer, but I am constantly switching from one subject to another and many times I find information that goes across all of what I am doing online. Therefore I make paper notes of it and then pick a day during the week where I go through them all and organize them into the proper categories. (This is where Evernote comes in and is good to have.) I also write more information about the topic or subject of the note.
So with that said I need to regroup myself, make a plan and execute it. I cannot afford to just do nothing today, even though it's what I want to do. And I cannot sit down and cry because that is not helping me to accomplish my goal of writing. So the only thing to do is stick with it.
There's just too much at stake right now.
DH is at his wits ends he let me know this morning. So now he is letting me know that there will be more outbursts coming my way. So I am really trying to get things done so that he doesn't have any outburst, therefore I won't get nervous and stressed out causing me more pain and anxiety.
So anyway, so much for life. It is the way it is and somethings we just can't change. No matter what or how we try some thing remain the same and we have to find ways of coping and dealing with things that we don't want to deal with.
So today I actually took the time to record my passwords and log in information in a place where I can access it without having to find all my stick notes and little notes. I had little pieces of paper scattered with login and password of different websites I have signed up for. So now I have gotten rid of the papers and it feels good to not have all these notes everywhere.
I find that it is okay to make notes when focused on something and you run across something you want to remember to come back to. Sure you can open whatever text editor you have to jot things down on the computer, but I am constantly switching from one subject to another and many times I find information that goes across all of what I am doing online. Therefore I make paper notes of it and then pick a day during the week where I go through them all and organize them into the proper categories. (This is where Evernote comes in and is good to have.) I also write more information about the topic or subject of the note.
So with that said I need to regroup myself, make a plan and execute it. I cannot afford to just do nothing today, even though it's what I want to do. And I cannot sit down and cry because that is not helping me to accomplish my goal of writing. So the only thing to do is stick with it.
There's just too much at stake right now.